Freddie lived his life groping the answer.

Was Freddie happy or not?

Maybe both answers are right.


I'm going to show you how I found the both answers in the movie "Bohemian Rhapsody"



Before starting my appreciation of the movie, I'd like you to know I was rather crazy at QUEEN more than 20 years ago.

Yes, I was one of them Freddie wanted to give what they wanted.

Have you seen this jacket?
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This is what I knew QUEEN first by.


Anyway, let's get into my experience of the movie, "Bohemian Rhapsody", here.

Watching the movie, I was so keen to get any clues suggesting how happy Freddie was.

What was his wish?

He gave us, his fans, what we wanted and that was his wish.

“I decide who I am. I’m going to be what I was born to be, a performer, who gives the people what they want.”


This is Freddie’s line in the movie, though I’m not going to tell you the scene in which he says it.

Please find it yourself.　(^_-)-☆


And certainly he made us happy with his voice and performance.


Well, hearing that line, have you noticed anything?
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Yes, we all know that phrase “I was born to・・・”.

I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart

In this phrase how about changing the word you into fans?

Or, the word you might mean “you” who are reading this page and me.


And we know he has practiced and been practicing this phrase even today.

Many people are encouraged and made happy by him.


But how about himself?

Was he ok?


Depending on his biography

He was raised in a rather rich family.

He had enough education and was very smart at school.

His blessed talent for art and music was paid a special attention.

He graduated from college with a diploma in graphic art and design, and a few commissions for adverts in local newspapers.


He was groping the answer.

In spite of such a better environment, he was not satisfied with the world around him.


In the movie he has been asking who he is.


His family migrated from India to England.

So it’s possible for Freddie to have had a hard time as a minority.


And in the movie, we witness the scene where young Freddie is called “Paki boy”.

Such treatment he can't naturally accept.


Then we can understand why he wants to ask himself “who he is”.

We can imagine and sympathize with his question.


And moreover, his question “who he is” is our common question in the process of growing, whether we notice or not.


Freddie is so sensitive that he naturally has such a question in his condition.


And he has a few chances to find the answer.


One chance is given by his father.

In the movie, his father says to him “Good thoughts, good words, good deeds.”

This teaching is the trinity from Zoroastrianism.


It supports his father and the spiritual legacy Freddie is expected to inherit from his father.

However, Freddie cannot appreciate the value and power or the meaning of the trinity.


The second chance is when he confesses his sexuality to his wife.


In the movie, he says “I've asked myself who I am. I am bisexual.”

This is one answer he has found himself.

He is brave and honest enough to take a minor label on himself.


And the third and last chance

He confesses his band members that he has AIDS before the preparation for the Live Aid.

He has no other choice but to be a patient of incurable disease.

Here, he is decisive and confident in himself, band members and what he should do.

At last he has found the perfect answer to the question “who he is”, when he has less time to be as he is.


What an irony it is!

This irony leads me to say both answers are right.

Yes, he was happy but not, either.


On the stage of the Live Aid, Freddie must have experienced the Trinity his father tried to teach his son and known its meaning.


This is the happiest time for just the chosen one!


Anyway, it's needless to say that Freddie is superior to usual people and his voice has special power.

And so it is about their musical achievement.


I can enjpoy QUEEN whenever I like on Amazon Music.

And it's almost free, as I'm a member of Amazon Prime.


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